Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Feeling confident and Robyn Lawley is my new role-model!
Hi dolls! I wanted to talk about something that everyone can relate to; having self-confidence. I will be the first to admit that without makeup and nice clothes I don't feel confident. Mainly because of some imperfections in my skin and a negative body image. I grew up with my mother constantly putting herself down, saying that she was fat and unattractive. Naturally, the negative image she had of herself reflected onto me. I have struggled with my weight my entire life. When I was 12 years old I suffered from anorexia. When I was at my smallest I was 5'2" and barely weighed over 100 lbs. I have a medium bone structure with wide hips so naturally, I looked like a walking skeleton. Unfortunately, people were not honest with me and told me I looked "great". In reality, I looked horrible. It wasn't until my family finally sat me down told me just how sick I looked that I woke up. Since then I have battled with keeping my weight under control. About a year after I got married I had gained over 30 lbs. Last January I made a lifestyle change to lose the weight. I can honestly say that since I made the change I have lost the 30 lbs and went from a size 14 to a size 8. Even after losing the 30 lbs and being 4 sizes smaller I still struggle with my body image each day. I still struggle with the desire to starve myself at times. However, I read an article earlier about an Australian lingerie model who is 6'2" and a size 16. Her name is Robyn Lawley and she recently became the campaign model for a UK lingerie line. She's absolutely beautiful and looks very healthy. Obviously at 6'2" a size 16 looks much different than if she was 5'2" but she still looks healthy and curvaceous. I think she has become my new role model. I sincerely hope that the media will begin to see that a woman who is healthy and curvy is much more beautiful than a an anorexic walking skeleton. Part of my goal as a makeup artist is to make women feel confident through showing them proper makeup application techniques but we as women also need to learn to embrace our bodies for what they are. Every woman, no matter the size, shape, or weight is beautiful. Confidence and a smile is the most attractive accessory a woman can wear!